Friday, May 30, 2008

cookie dough therapy

Yup, that's what I had yesterday. A special therapy session with Cami. To explain why I needed this therapy, I'm gonna say it's the hormonal pregnancy thing. I can't remember being this hormonal since high school! It really is getting tough to handle the tears lately. This pregnancy is so different in many ways to what I experienced with the girls. Anywho, it started with a very restless night, it seems my hips just want to ache, no matter how many pillows I use! Then when taking our morning walk, the front tire to my jogging stroller decided to wobble so bad it was hard to steer. Having to turn around and come home just frustrated me. As with most pregnant women in their third trimester, I am feeling like a whale! So, my walks make me feel as if I'm doing something to keep somewhat of a shape to my body. Coming home and sitting at the computer I see all the dog fur on the floor. Didn't I just vacuum? Yes, but it seems our 7+ year old vacuum just doesn't do the job it use to. So I decided to email Cam at school and complain about the crappy morning I'm having. When he responded I realized how mean I had sounded, blaming everything on him, not fair! I couldn't take it anymore, the tears just started to flow. I was crying so hard Caylee started laughing, (I think she thought I was actually laughing). Then Cami came to me and started to rub my arm & told me it would be OK. When I didn't stop right away Cami then started to cry with me. She just stood at my side and held my arm. When I finally calmed down she simply said, "Mama, I love you". I melted. God's grace & the beauty of our children told me it would all be fine. So, Caylee went down for a nap & I asked Cami to help me do one of her most favorite things, bake cookies. Within a few minutes I was smiling and soon laughing with her. She gets a kick out of every step of the process. I feel so blessed to have such a ray of sunshine to help "pick me up". The day turned out much better then it started.

When Cam came home he fixed my stroller, cleaned out our vacuum cleaner & put sandwiches together for dinner! I love him. After the girls went down he disappeared for bit & when he returned he had a large ice cream with my name on it! What a real sweetheart. THANKS BABE, YOU ROCK!!!

7 comments:

Jen said...

Its amazing how pregnancy can sometimes turn our world around. I am glad your day turned out better just a little while longer and you will have a beautiful baby boy. Praise God! Jen

Karen said...

I have days like that and Holly does the same thing, they are at such a sweet age. So glad the day got better and Cam came home and took care of things for you! What a great family you have!!

carrie*postma said...

only 57 days left (or 47...wishful thinking)!!!!

cathy said...

Jess-- I'm here for you. Let me know when you need me to make cookie dough. I don't even need to invade your space.. I can do it right here in my own home... what's that? Are you asking me to make some right now? Oh don't cry I'll go do it right now!!! Let me know anytime, all the time or even twice in one day... I can do it!!

Mary said...

What sweet girl you have! I am sorry you had such a frustrating day.

Megan said...

you have such a precious family! Hang in there...not much longer. If it makes you feel any better, I was probably crying yesterday at the exact moment you were. Hormonal preggos, unite!

Laura said...

You made me cry with this one...because of the day you had and then because of the amazing family you have. Hang in there - I'm praying for you!